suhas's b'day. so decided to make his day today. geeks and i got him Atlas Shrugged. geeks wanted to get him an abc book or something. i mean generally his funda baout how one should always give wacky gifts to people. that way they remember your gifts and you. but unfortunately he had to succumb to my demands of giving suhas a decent gift. i am sure he thinks i am a killjoy.

so spent the day with four guys. i always wanted to be a guy. i mean apart from the usual crap about how it's so much easier being a guy in the world, i think a guy's world is so much more different. so many questions that you never have to worry about answering. i mean even simple stuff like, "when are u gonna get home, it's getting late." make so much of a difference to your life. or even the way a guy thinks is so damn different. guys are so much more hassle free. i mean no hang ups, no nothing. i also thinks guys are better at logical reasoning. and have a wider perspective in life, generally. actually right now i wish no feminist reads my blog. but honestly i think guys are much more fun. they can just let go.

so geo has got himself a job, took us to his office, showed off in front of the coffee vending machine and then introduced us to his seniors there. it's kinda weird hanging around with engineers. sometimes i wonder what i would have been if not a journalist. i mean would i have been happy with a nice office and a comp to myself? would i have been able to sit through the day selling soaps, shampoos, telephones or credit cards or loans to people whom i have never met or spoken to? would i have ever been able to crack the CAT or the GRE?

i need closure. closure from mumbai, from my family..from everyone i know and those who know me. generally, i think i need time to think things out. is this normal for a 21 year old?