so finally decided to develop a roll after 2 years...took a lot for me to fight the demons in my head...but just when i thought that was all the fighting that was left to do...i find out it isn't over...

there are new ones waiting to haunt me for a lifetime... Buffy anyone?

and my philosophy of "ten minutes, a good cry and a warm shower" isn't helping me battle my insecurities...

well, everytime i rationalise saying "everything happens for a reason that we will understand best only when we are capable of seeing it objectively"...but you know what?? the time it takes to start seeing it objectively is killing and just too too destructive...

maybe my 'moment' is over and i am too hurt to admit it....

just maybe...