we live in a twisted world, where everything has a twisted logic, including the logic that is used to keep out stories.
i am convinced that there is no such thing as free press. everything is secondary when to comes to revenue, profits, bottomlines, bullshit.
so i am kept out of doing anti builder stories..."do the illegal demolition as a human interest story, the fact that it is illegal does not matter." that is what i am told.
the fact that i ouput my life to danger and get a story, " no matter what" does not matter to anyone here at the desk. my paper has been started only to tap the local revenue that has been left untapped. the fact that it is a community newspaper is bullshit.
on secondthoughts, i think i am just over reacting. and frankly speaking, this is just a job!JUST A JOB! the fact was that i was more passionate about it than the people i was working for or the things that the issues that i wrote about! but not any longer.
my motto is:- It's just a job! like any other job that helps you keep your shirt on your back, that helps you tell your parents that you are financially independent. that helps you tell the world that you are earning for a living.
there is nothing motivating about it.
i wouldn't be half as frustrated even if my stories did not make a difference. the fact that i was given the freedom to write about it was sufficient. the fact that i was not made to hide issues or disguise the bitter pill was enough of a reason to celebrate. but not any longer. i might as well be an ostrich who has buried her head in the sand.