Wednesday, January 26, 2005

so while bloggers across the globe are beginning to find more significant uses for their blogs...reporting on the tsunami, election humbug in iraq, etc...i continue to use my blog as a medium to vent out my personal failings and anger...talk about being self obsessed...

but guess what..just when i thought i was all out of warmth, i discover that it regenerated itself!

becoming increasingly difficult to live at home..without obsessing about an independent secure future...especially, when that independence is not just about the money! my insecurities are too big for my size (still a meek five feet) and i can't play David here i am sure!

trying to find balance in the strangest of places...coimbatore if you please!


Monday, January 17, 2005

so finally decided to develop a roll after 2 years...took a lot for me to fight the demons in my head...but just when i thought that was all the fighting that was left to do...i find out it isn't over...

there are new ones waiting to haunt me for a lifetime... Buffy anyone?

and my philosophy of "ten minutes, a good cry and a warm shower" isn't helping me battle my insecurities...

well, everytime i rationalise saying "everything happens for a reason that we will understand best only when we are capable of seeing it objectively"...but you know what?? the time it takes to start seeing it objectively is killing and just too too destructive...

maybe my 'moment' is over and i am too hurt to admit it....

just maybe...




Saturday, January 15, 2005

hello peoples!

so spent another new years doing crap! watched Alexander making out with a guy! On a Big Screen!
anyways..Charu who went aroung the world and back doing her graduation is back for good! and is she wild as ever or what!! hahahaha!
so have been studying like a good child and am most pleased with myself these days...

hopefully this time Dilli door nahin...SIGH!